This picture was taken in November 08, but I am at the same weight as today.Yes. This is me in the picture. I know I am pretty brave to post this picture but I think it will help to see updates through out my journey. I have struggled with my weight for a long time. I was not over weight as a young child but during my teenage years I definitely had a struggle...mainly in my mind. It is kind of funny because I look back at my pictures of myself as a senior in High School and remember thinking how fat I was. I look pretty good...not fat. However, all my friends were a size zero...so when I compared myself to them...I viewed myself as FAT!
Anyway, during my freshman year in college I was not the typical freshman. I did not gain 15 pounds but lost weight. I walked/jogged at the track almost every day. I ate at school...lots of salads. Fast forward to my senior year in college... I began having relationship problems with my boyfriend of 6 years. My first love. The weight starting creeping up on me...By the end of the year I had gained nearly 40 lbs. and lost the man I was going to marry. (He cheated on me...soon after he bought an engagement ring). The reason I tell you this is because ...then food became my friend and lover. I was devastated...food comforted me.
Now I know God works all things for our good.
I continued gaining weight for the next two years at a rapid pace...
Then I met my husband....He is wonderful! I am happily married to the best man in the world...A true soul mate! A love like I've never known before!
After two boys being born 2 years apart the weight kept escalating. I tried diet after diet...but failed!! I couldn't stay on them...The cravings were unbelievable! I am a carb addict! For over 10 years I have been obese...not happy where I am at with my weight!
A couple of weeks ago I got so dizzy out of nowhere, and thought I was going to faint. I continued for several days not feeling good off and on. I knew it was probably blood sugar issues. I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia 10 years ago. This has made me not only want to change for good...I've got to do it! I DO NOT like feeling this way!
2008- I lost 20 pounds that I had kept off. My highest weight ever 293...talk about being mortified! I said that day that if I reach 300 I will have surgery. I do not want surgery so even though this may be a long journey...it will be worth it
I AM WORTH IT!
Rhonda, You ARE definitely worth it! You are a beautiful woman of God and you are on the right path towards finding the "you" you've always been searching for.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement...I think I'm finally ready to get back in this thing and continue to work on becoming a happier and healthier me!